Apr 14, 2012 - 1:52 pm
Hi to all..... I have been away from these boards for a few months, although I occasionally take a moment to catch up on how everyone is. I have shed endless tears and celebrated tremendous victories with so many of you.
I am so sad to see so many new names and stories. I am finding it increasingly hard to visit this place, as the constant reminders of the pain and suffering can be overwhelming. Since Lee passed in November, it's been a whirlwind of emotion. I've just recently passed from the denial and total numbness phase to the intense grief phase, making it so much harder to participate here. I do plan to continue to visit the boards, and please know that I am thinking of all of you, even if I may not have the strength to reply to your posts.
I continue to visit the facebook group as well, and some of us widows (what a miserable word that is) have formed a separate group where we focus on healing and positive ways to keep one foot in front of the other, as we mourn our losses. I am so grateful to this site for providing me with these wonderful ladies. It has been a true blessing for me to meet so many fantastic friends, who know exactly what I'm going through.
I wish you all well, as you battle the beast. I pray that there will be many more victories to come! I raise a glass to all of you, caregivers, survivors and friends who will look the dragon in the eye......
be well my friends,