Apr 11, 2012 - 2:23 pm
I got great news today, but I’m also very sensitive to those on this board who have had not-so-great news. In my first post last fall I said I almost felt guilty for being “only” Stage 1, and Eric “yelled” at me and said I should feel blessed, not guilty, which I have tried to do ever since. It was one of many wonderfully sensitive things poor Eric said.
I had my 6 month post-op CT scan and appointment with my surgeon today, and the news was all good. The scans were clear and all organs were “unremarkable.” Best of all, “No CT evidence to suggest local recurrence or metastatic disease.” NED! Hallefrigginluiah!!
I’d told myself before the appointment not to sweat it, to wait to hear what he had to say, and to be prepared for whatever it might be. I knew that statistically as a Stage 1 the odds were that it would be clear, but I also know that with this beast we have to be prepared for anything. I tried to ignore the statistics about EC when I was first diagnosed and I believe wholeheartedly that each of us is a statistic of 1, so I was trying to ignore the stats again for the past few days. But it turns out I wasn’t as successful as I’d thought, because when he told me what the report said the feeling of relief was profound, to say the least. Like I did when he told me in October that my surgical path reports were negative, my first reaction was that I cried from the relief.
So I wanted to share my good news with my friends on the board. We’re saddened by one another’s bad and often tragic news, and I know I’ve rejoiced whenever someone is NED. I know full well that my NED report only counts until my next scan in 6 months, but until then I choose to consider myself cancer-free. Eric was right: I am blessed and I know it: to have such a fabulous medical team, to have had a good scan todya, and to have found the boundless support and love from all of you. I truly hope that mine is just one of many positive reports.