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sumann
Posts: 13
Joined: Dec 2011

Hi buddys..i juz completed abvd 6.2 which mean 12 times of chemo..i felt my whole body system haved change..nw awaiting for pet scan in a month time..what i scared is will i get a report that shows no evidence of lymphoma cells or still have lymphoma cells activities. Feeling very tired and depression at the same time.thanks folks..

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diazr1
Posts: 101
Joined: Mar 2012

Tired we all got after ABVD you are normal to be tired , you cannt control what is out of your hands continue to be positive and happy and those happy cells will run through your body

darliner00
Posts: 1
Joined: May 2012

Yes, me also but all we need is to accept whatever we have and live our lives with full of love together with our family. By the way. I found this page that might give you a little more advice on ABVD. I wish you the best. mantle cell lymphoma

Jrcronister
Posts: 1
Joined: Apr 2012

Howdy! In my experience, you're going to feel both. Estatic that you're done with chemo and terrified that the cancer is going to come back. I'd love to tell you that this fear goes away, but it doesn't (remission since 2009). I can tell you that it gets easier though. And being sad is normal... most healthy people wouldn't agree with this, "You've beat Cancer -- you should be thrilled!!" What they don't understand is that your life has changed COMPLETELY, so it's best to nod, smile and imagine putting duct tape over their mouths for having NO FREAKIN IDEA OF WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT... they're trying to help, so it's not done out of spite.

My best advice (After Stage 3 NHL, Liver disease and 3 major organ removals -- all before the age of 38) is that when you're feeling sad... just keep in mind that tomorrow is another day... and it will get better... it may take awhile, but it does. The thing you need to realize is that your body is flushing out the meds, toxins, etc that you've been taking for treatment, so your moods (happy, sad, manic, depressed, whatever) really are not your own -- take a nap and things get better.

kalalaud
Posts: 14
Joined: May 2012

I've read your comment... and this really hits home for my son. He is going through all of this. He recently finished 6 mos of treatment - ABVD. His PET Scan is next week Monday. He's depressed and sad...and I'm trying like heck to be positive for him..He's such a strong young man that when I ask him how he's feeling.. it's always good. But, last night he told me he feels that the cancer hasn't gone away.. I'm hoping and praying it has. My emotions are all over the place. Thank you for the post and I pray for you and everyone on here. And you're right, some people have NO FREAKIN IDEA OF WHAT THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT... but we can understand they're trying to be positive for us, right?

Jencarr
Posts: 11
Joined: Mar 2012

Feel the same as you! I am at the exact place you are wanting to celebrate having survived chemo treatment, terrified of the results of PET Scan coming up, and wondering if the chemo helped and for how long. What I am doing is making future plans for fun activities with family and friends and being positive that I will do it! Maybe having something to look forward to wi help you, too

Jencarr
Posts: 11
Joined: Mar 2012

Feel the same as you! I am at the exact place you are wanting to celebrate having survived chemo treatment, terrified of the results of PET Scan coming up, and wondering if the chemo helped and for how long. What I am doing is making future plans for fun activities with family and friends and being positive that I will do it! Maybe having something to look forward to will help you, too

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jimwins
Posts: 2003
Joined: Aug 2011

Hello sumann,

I'm so sorry you have had to go through all this - actually sorry for all of
us here :).

As you can see from all the responses, tired is pretty much normal.
I still get tired very easily and usually nap during the day and I
completed my chemo about 6 months ago.

Fatigue can make you depressed as well. Try to focus on positive things
and one day at a time. Even with all this cancer stuff, there are things
to be thankful for. I try to remind myself of that often. It's not easy.
Sometimes we need to let the feelings like depression, anger, etc. happen
so we can process them. That's perfectly normal and human. We just can't
let them take us over.

I know the waiting and not knowing is horible. Rest as much as you can and be
good to yourself. Hopefully as you gain more energy, you'll be less depressed too!
Try to limit how much you worry and focus on negative things. It helps to find
things to laugh at and not be so serious all the time. You'll get through this!

Congratulations on getting through all your chemo! That's a big accomplishment!

Hugs and positive energy coming your way,

Jim

sumann
Posts: 13
Joined: Dec 2011

I have no words when i got support from this forum since i dun hav support frm my own county plus im a orphan..thanks again..

po18guy
Posts: 237
Joined: Nov 2011

Cancer is never good news to receive. It is not a reason to be happy, but it is a reason to be thankful for each day of life that we are given. It is a reason to have new purpose in your life. We live only one day at a time, and none of us can be 100% sure that we will wake up tomorrow. Let us live each day loving those who are closest to us. Our bodies will recover from the chemotherapy, but let our spirits also recover from the diagnosis. I am convinced that a joyful heart produces healing. You are not an orphan among all of your brothers and sisters here. Of that you may be sure.

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jimwins
Posts: 2003
Joined: Aug 2011

Hey Sumann,

I agree with what po18guy stated - you are not an orphan here :).
Hang in there and big hugs to you!

Jim

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COBRA666
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Joined: May 2010

If we get right down to it we all live one day at a time. Cancer or not its that way for everybody. I have yet to meet anybody that tomorrow is promised too.Its just when something like cancer hits you in the face we become more aware of it. It takes something like this to make us realize it. Its a hard pill to swallow,but unfortunately its the way it is.We have to face the tiredness day after day and the checkups to go along with it.Then comes the test results (UGH). We have to face challenges that sometimes seem unbearable but none the less have to be done. I am sure not happy about it as I know none of us are. It is just a constant reminder that we are vulnerable. There are a lot of people out there that think they are indestructable and guess what,tomorrow has not been promised to them either.Good wishes to all. John

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Max Former Hodg...
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Joined: May 2012

Answer: Be happy. I did 12 r-abvds also. When in doubt, be happy.

Max

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