Mar 28, 2012 - 4:55 pm
So here we are, not even a year after diagnosis of my fiancés brain tumor and surgery. He proposed to me on Valentine’s Day, what an amazing moment that was… for a little while.
We are so lucky that the surgery had no effect on him thus far. He is back at work and healthier than ever now that the headaches are gone as well. His tumor was not completely removed due to location. He has not received any type of treatment after surgery either. They are taking a wait and see approach with his grade 2 brain tumor, well.. what is remaining.
So here I am, newly engaged, things are looking up health wise for him… and I have a fear of getting married, because his future is so unclear. I have of fear of having what it takes should the day come that he is very sick. It’s so easy to forget when he is well. His attitude is un like anything you have ever seen. You would never know!!! He is happy, he is great, he is well and determined this will not bring him down. I think the cancer is effecting me more! How silly is that!?
How do you keep moving forward when things are so unclear? Most couples look forward and see a life together forever… I can’t do that. I’m feeling a bit robbed.