I am overwhelmed with sadness. My sweet wonderful Mom passed away on Feb 14. She was in hospice for one week. I was there for her almost all the time, the last five years. During that time my only brother died suddenly too.
I have put off my own treatment since last fall to be available for my Mom.
I just feel so totally lost and alone.
I tried to do everything that I could to give her the best last years of her life. It feels like I didn't do enough. How will I go on without her. I miss her so much.
She always had a smile on her face, which helped me so much with all my fears.
I just can't believe that I am alone. I really need her, I know that is selfish, but I just miss her so much.
I try to be strong on the outside, but inside my heart is broken. Everynight I cry. I am so lost.
I am so very very sad.
No one seems to understand how hard this is for me.
I just feel so alone..