Feb 28, 2012 - 3:08 am
I have been a insomniac most of my 28 years, seriously I never slept as a baby and now I cant sleep unless I take benadlry or ambien. I has stopped taking it right before and after surgery, but since I am at week 6 thur from surgery, and will be going back to work on Saturday I know I have to take the ambien again. Has anyone been told not to take these meds? I thought I couldnt sleep before surgery, now I just lay there longer thinking after surgery. At least I feel good, totally back to normal. Only a few random feelings of soreness or pain in the kidney area. The doc said that I would have more pain because I was young and lost part of it, so I would feel more because the whole thing was not removed.
Still dont think I have come to terms with the whole cancer thing. My dad seems to think I just need to move on. Uh yeah I had cancer, could have died, am super young, yup lets just move on with things...ugh I had that kind of closed minded thinking. I did finally find a therapist so lets see if it helps. Couldn't hurt I figured..
Oh and cold medication.. What do people take?! I had the flu and cold this week, I finally caved and took nyquil and tylenol flu. We shouldn't take IB Profen right? So confusing! My doc just said live like it never happened. But that seems to risky.
Watched Forks over knives a documentary about cancer and the meat protein link which has me all freaked out now that I might have given myself cancer. What if it isnt the gene, and I caused it, or it just happened? Am I doomed? I hope I get the genetic results back soon. Well over now with my rambles...