One year post treatment

Hello everyone and first off this forum has been extremely helpful in this journey. It has been perhaps one of the hardest years of my 46 . I have been through alot, being a recovering alcoholic I have had many rough times in my life. Having lost everything at 38 and managing to become a contributor to society and now having a family, I thought all the BS was over. Think again funny man. My DX was similar to many here stage iv SCC. 33 rads and three rounds of Chemo. It Knocked me on my ****. At the time I was in good shape, ate well and exercised on a regular basis. I finished treatment 1 yr ago today and to say what a difference a year makes would be understating it immensely. I lost 55lbs with the Peg tube. Thank god I put that thing in, I went for 3 months without solids because of the throat pain and nausea. Today I am back to work, feeling great and appreciating all that life has to offer. It's funny because people see me in good shape - smiling and joking....little do they know! I suffered from severe depression a few months after I went back to work. I went to a shrink and doing alot better now. Wellbutrin does wonders. Now I know that depression is no joke, I couldn't get out of bed and had no interest in anything, except sleeping. Well the old saying is what doesn't kill you makes you stronger and there right. What we have done for ourselves alone, dies with us; what we have done for others and the world, remains and is immortal." I love that quote and thanks for letting me vent- God Bless.....Paul