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Still Debbie Cakes wish I could send you all some

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zinniemay
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Joined: Mar 2009

Sometimes it seams like I am living a nightmare that never goes away. I fear to say somethings. I look at the gladd as half empty. Sometimes I am so depressed I forget what it is like to laugh. Some times just it is like fighting a battle that no one wins. . but then my hubby does something silly or odd for him like buyig me a box of Debbie Cakes.. Or like when we were young looking for work and did not have allot of money Cracker Jacks three for a dollar . wow we ate them when we would go out job hunting. So not once in a while a surpise of three little boxes of Cracker jacks , and I am like a little kid again!
We bought and wrapped presents for out adult kids, and a few little things for each other and I think . Holy cow what a great life. We have right now, I do not want to set and think the what when why or where . I want the humor and hope that JOe has showed me. I just want to live this day and be where I am with my family loving them like I did yesterday and hope to do always.
Now one to the Debbie cakes I know I hide some some where. and Thank you all who have stuck by me in my roller coaster ride. and Hanging on with me. But do not touch my Debbie cakes.....
Love and peace be with you .
Jennie

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forme
Posts: 1158
Joined: Aug 2010

Hi Jennie

We met a while back in the chat room. I just had to respond to your post.

The last few days have been so hard for me, it's the holidays. Depressed at having to battle cancer, happy to be here to battle cancer and so on and so on.

And you are so right, it is the little things that matter and feeling free like a little kid again.

Have a wonderful Christmas with your family and enjoy your Debbie cakes..

Lisha

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zinniemay
Posts: 534
Joined: Mar 2009

I am always remined of when I was a kid maybe in some ways I still am. But I know that I still have so much to be thankful for. My hubby had been to hell and back . He is still with me, as happy as I am my heart still breaks for so many others who have not and do not have their hubbys and wifes or Children with them.
I feel a strange happiness and yet still sad. I wish I could tell you it gets eaier , I wish I could tell you all the things you need to hear.
All I know is today I have my family and I am truely blessed. But still worry and have a feeling of uncontrolable worries of the what ifs .
I use the Debbie cakes as a way to feel connected to life the little girl on the pakeage never seams to change. Maybe she is trying to tell me something!
Anyway I wish for you all to have a Merry Christmas and know that someone out there still does really care.
Jennie

Noellesmom
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Joined: Aug 2010

Hope things are great for you and your family now and through the New Year.

Hugs.

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