Dec 05, 2011 - 3:18 pm
I have been in treatment and not able to logon as often, but I just finished my last Rituxan maintenance. Two years went by incredibly fast and it's such a relief, but at the same time the anxiety of how long the relief will last is always there.
I'm also feeling some survivor's guilt, has anyone been at this point and felt this? I'm so grateful for where I am, but I don't want to "Happy Dance". It doesn't feel right when others are still fighting for their lives or losing their battle.
When I left the infusion center the other day, I didn't have the elation I thought I would have. I left behind the sick ones who may not leave there for the last time for a good reason.
Woo, I thought this was the easy part!