Oct 20, 2011 - 2:12 pm
Spent all day yesterday getting his MRI, CT, bloodwork, xrays,met with the anesthesiologist. It was very stressful for both of us, I didnt know that I couldnt even wait with him for the hour he had to sit and wait after getting his IV and having the meds put it. I think I got my first taste of what this is going to be like for me...alot of waiting for him. I guess I will read alot! lol I also realized how long his recovery is going to be and it hit me that our sex life is toast for awhile....selfish I know but we have always had a great sex life and we wont even be able to kiss because the surgery cuts thru his lip. I am going to miss our closeness. I guess I am actually a little depressed today. sucks. After the first dr visit when we were told he has cancer we cried and were miserable but as soon as we got home he ignored me and talked on the phone to everyone telling them he had cancer! while I sat upstairs in shock and despair.....well, he did it again this time...as soon as we get home BAM he is on the phone, well I actually said something about it and he got off the phone and spent some time with me and THEN got back on the phone and then when he is off he wants my attention again. OH Lord how am I going to get thru this???????????????????????????????