Oct 18, 2011 - 9:20 pm
Mark said outloud (and to me) when I gave him his 11 am meds, "I am ready Lord, even though I don't want to go, I am ready." At that time I said "I don't want you to go either but you have my permission to go." We embraced and I cried. He said that he has the best wife in the world and he hates leaving her but it is inevitable. Then I covered him back up after our hug and he went back to sleep.
He is such a sweet man. I was sad all day today except when he finally got up at 6 pm until 8:30 pm to eat and hang with me. I thanked him profusely for getting up because he knows that when he is in bed I am sad. But I (of course) tell him not to worry.
I had this long letter that I wrote to the post saying Roller Coaster Ride, yes it is a roller coaster, right now I am on the tippy top with my happy face because my husband got up today. Earlier I was in the valley of sadness because I was calling funeral homes.
On another note, I think someone should check this website out because my long drawn out letter never got posted and I don't remember what I said, I hope it was good but I have no clue.
Thanks for listening!