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KLScoville
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Mark said outloud (and to me) when I gave him his 11 am meds, "I am ready Lord, even though I don't want to go, I am ready." At that time I said "I don't want you to go either but you have my permission to go." We embraced and I cried. He said that he has the best wife in the world and he hates leaving her but it is inevitable. Then I covered him back up after our hug and he went back to sleep.

He is such a sweet man. I was sad all day today except when he finally got up at 6 pm until 8:30 pm to eat and hang with me. I thanked him profusely for getting up because he knows that when he is in bed I am sad. But I (of course) tell him not to worry.

I had this long letter that I wrote to the post saying Roller Coaster Ride, yes it is a roller coaster, right now I am on the tippy top with my happy face because my husband got up today. Earlier I was in the valley of sadness because I was calling funeral homes.

On another note, I think someone should check this website out because my long drawn out letter never got posted and I don't remember what I said, I hope it was good but I have no clue.

Thanks for listening!
~Kelly

leprechaun2
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Joined: Jul 2011

You are both amazing. Thank you for sharing. You are an ins-iration! YOu know what I mean!

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KLScoville
Posts: 161
Joined: Mar 2011

Honey,

You are a real treat and I enjoy talking with you on chat...irregardless if your "P" is working or not...I love it...it makes you...you!

I wish that I felt amazing and sometimes I actually feel like I do but it is getting harder and harder these days. I think that both Laura and I are in the same boat/race. I don't mean that in a bad way but it seems to me that we are racing to see who gets to the "finish" first which sucks...CANCER SUCKS!!!

All the best to you! You are in my prayers!

~Kelly

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