I'm having a hard day today. (glad it's almost over) I think I'm feeling this way because two of my kids have
asked in the last couple days when my next doc appt is. I have a follow up U/S on Nov 3rd to see if the lesion on my right kidney
has changed. I usually have huge anxiety about a week before, but this is crazy!!!! I want to celebrate the fact that I've been cancer free almost two years now. (left kidney and tumor removed Oct 2009) Instead, I have this empty pit feeling in my stomach. Hate it, hate the fact that I had cancer.