Sep 24, 2011 - 12:13 pm
I really need to vent today and I know that this board is unbiase and I honestly feel better typing on this when I do have to vent.
This cancer is ruining me and my husband. We were suppose to be together and grow old together and this cancer is taking all that away from us. I HATE CANCER! My poor husband doesn't deserve this treatment of pain and suffering!! It is eating away at him and as his caregiver it is taking him away from me! I love him dearly and this stupid cancer is making our time together shorter than we had expected! DAMN THIS CANCER!!! This isn't suppose to be happening...we are suppose to grow old and enjoy each other. Not him sleeping all the time while the cancer eats at him. Not me having to check him while he sleeps. Not giving him morphine for the pain. This isn't suppose to happen! I HATE CANCER!!! I know I will go on without him once he does leave his earthly body and I know he will be pain free. I just don't want him to go!!! We constantly say "I love you" to each other knowing that someday those words won't be said or heard again!! We aren't suppose to say goodbye this early in our life together! His time is getting short and I know it as does he. I HATE CANCER!!
Thanks for letting me vent (my best friend is calling and making me change my thought process of thinking about this sucky cancer, I really don't care what she is saying right now but I will listen to get my mind into a different state) and God bless!
See my other post on "a caregivers life" in regards to my best friend calling me!!!! GRRR...this cancer sucks!