Sep 24, 2011 - 8:27 am
My beautiful 47 year old mother was diagnosed with stage 3 liver cancer on my parents' 22nd anniversary in July. We were told with chemoembolization she would have up to 2 years. Last weekend the doctors have told us despite the chemoembolization, the cancer has spread all over her lungs and stomach. They gave her 6 months. My mom took a turn for the worse and has not been able to eat for the past 11 days without vomiting or crying in pain. they said she will not make it to october.
I am only 20 years old and I have a 16 year old brother. I dropped out of college and gave up 2 internships to be with her. My question is however, how do i mentally, physically, and/or financially prepare for my moms death? She does not have a will, life insurance, or anything of that sort. We are currently in hospice care, and she wakes up every hour crying in pain. She now does not know what she is saying and shakes frequently. My dad is so busy preparing for my moms death that he is not there when my mom is awake. So i am her primary caregiver. I have not left her side for 3 weeks, literally.
I need my mom. while my dad is so consumed at work and my brother is consumed at school/soccer, my mom and I were always together. we shopped, cooked, cleaned, and i even worked with her over the summer. i dont know how i will cope with my moms death. and im worried. when i think about living life without my mom, i think its better to just die with her. how do you cope with losing a mom? what will my dad do/be like? my brother? how do i move on?