Sep 20, 2011 - 1:44 pm
My mother was diagnosed with Stage IV Lung cancer in May of 2011. In the beginning we all were shocked to hear this news but very hopeful since she had successfully battled Lymphoma 12 years ago. When we first found out I took her to the ER because we thought she was having a stroke only to find out that she had a large tumor in her brain along with 3-4 smaller ones. The ct scan later showed masses in her left lung and she was then diagnosed with Stage IV inoperable lung cancer. ...After 20 full brain radiation treatments and 5 chemos (Cisplatin and Carboplatin and Alimta). I feel as though she has given up hope. I am her primary care giver and I love my mother more than anything in the world. After reading life expectancies and effects of the rad and the chemos she has been receiving I feel that there is nothing else i can do but be there with her no matter what. We did get some good news from the Oncologist who said that the tumors in her lungs had almost completely dissapeared (after 4 chemo treatments) but we are still in the dark, waiting for an MRI in October.
She is hopeless and depressed which I know are normal feelings, but it is killing me inside. When I see her I try to smile and make her laugh and let her know that I love her. I'm currently in my last 2 semesters of College and it's a constant struggle between taking a break from school to be there with her as much as I can and just trying to suck it up and graduate. But being a full-time student I am not able to be with my mom as much as I was during the summer.
I need advice, someone to share a story, or just kind words, to help my mother and I get through this. I am terrified, Ill, and helpless.