Sep 11, 2011 - 5:12 pm
I totally blew up at my fiancee this morning, and I can't for the life of me remeber what stupid petty thing it was that I was soooo pissed of about. I love my fiancee and am so grateful to have him in my life. I hate the cancer, I hate it I hate it. I hate looking for treatment options I hate applying for assistance and just not quite fitting the criteria. I hate the SSI disability process, I hate that he is in pain every single day and there is nothing I can do to fix it. And I hate insurance companies. the whole american insurance system sucks!!!!
wow, that's an awful lot of hate. I'm not a hateful person like that. I just hate what this cancer has done by just being there. put off getting married, put off having a baby, put off buying land because why? Cancer. Stupid rotten stinking cancer.
Granted, I wouldn't trade a minute of my time with him. Cancer , chemo and all of it. I'm just worn down from the fight. Constantly worried about eviction, worried that his next scan will have bad news.