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COBRA666
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What was that new avatar you had with your name. It was interesting though. Sorta reminded me of the universe.I just clicked on and I see you changed it back to the bluerose.I couldn't figure it out. John

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John,

I wondered the same thing. I just couldn't figure it out. It looked cool and scary at the same time.

Kellie

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Hi John,

I think I remember seeing that avatar before. If I remember correctly, Bluerose said it was her eye. Maybe she will let us know. My memory has a lot of holes in it. So, don't take my word on it.

How are you doing. We have not had much of a chat lately.

Lisha

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Yikes if I put any body part up on my profile someone call the crazy squad. lol. It's not my eye and in fact it's not an eye at all, it's a nebula in the heavans that was taken by the Hubble Telescope many years ago. It's actually a combination of shots apparently. There is a name to the nebulla but of course I forget.

Ya it was kind of creepy but I thought it was kind of cool too, they call it 'the eye of God' because it's in the heavans. I didn't want to keep it on my profile cause it's not really me just thought that it was very interesting how the thing looked - just like an eye with all the right rings in it and everything. Mighty close to the real thing. I will try to put it on my profile if I can figure out how to do that.

Blessings,

Bluerose

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COBRA666
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Lisha,
I am here everyday. I read all the post. It is sad all the new people that have found us recently. I mean it is sad they have to be here,but at the same time they have found a group of people that they can identify with. They will find this group is a world of information.This is only a fraction of the people out there that are going thru this crap. I am about the same and have a pet scan next Monday,my second. I still do not feel 100%. More like a 97%. My eyes stay tired,but I do not feel that my body is tired. It seems a lot of our old group has gradually gotten away from the site. I hope they are all OK and enjoying life. I can't blame them for that.Just wish more of them would check in more often. They are the living proof this stuff can be beaten. Take care and be talking to you. John

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I check the boards everyday though I haven't been posting as much as I did for a while. I am still home recovering from my sct, but I just don't seem to have the same focus as I used to. Seems like my mind is all over the place and I flit from task to task without completing much.

Yesterday we made my 100 day checkup appointment with the docs for 9/22, so hopefully will be back to work soon. This financial strain has just about broken my spirit but I know it will get better soon...IF I can get back to work.

I know I am still tired and worried what strength I have won't go far. I know worrying doesn't help matters but still can't seem to help myself. I'll be having another PET/CT and that worries me. I can't help but think it didn't work.

Well enough of the pessimistic side of me.
Take care everyone,
Beth

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I know it's hard to remain positive all the time and I believe so strongly in telling it like it is, not putting on that brave face because you think you have to all the time - it's exhausting. If you feel rotten say so, it's not really pessimistic it's just a possible reality we all know is there for each of us but don't want to admit. You need to express yourself so go right ahead, no one on here minds and we all are there on and off ourselves.

Having said that though please try and focus on the tests WORKING though if you can. Force yourself maybe to do a little visualization - sometimes doing that over and over helps to change the way we are feeling and thinking. Just an idea. I will pray that your tests all come back alright.

It's hard for me to follow some of the responses to postings because the site used to send back notices there were responses to posts we did but I don't get those anymore if they do so since I post all over the place I sometimes don't see responses where I have written before so glad you spoke of your feelings in this post where Cobra had made up a posting with my name on it. lol. That I didn't miss.

Sounds like you are having a good shot of chemobrain from the way you are describing your mind all over the place. I have it in spades so I think I see the signs there but you know stress can do that all by itself too - leave us unfocused, too much on our minds and with your added financial issues - no wonder you are all over the map. Hopefully this will all pass as you move towards getting back to work and the brighter side of your life.

One day at a time kiddo. Keep posting and remember we are here to have a good yap with you whever you need us.

Hugs kiddo,

Bluerose

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bluerose
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I put the picture of 'the eye' on my profile under 'blog' if you want to go and see it again or anyone else here for that matter, feel free. I put a note under it.

Enjoy.

Blessings always,

Bluerose

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