Aug 11, 2011 - 10:33 am
You know, I’d really thought that I was pretty much over needles. I always used to faint or nearly faint when I got them. I remember that in college I would even give blood but immediately go to the recovery cots because it was that or the floor.
Cancer changed all that... or so I thought. For six months I had at least one a day it seemed and often more. I got to where I could just walk in and get stuck for hydration and not think about it. As long as they didn’t have to poke around too much, I was fine. And as an athlete, I have great veins, they always say confidently. But since my neck dissection six months ago I have been mercifully without a single needle.
So I went in yesterday for my six-month PET-CT and they had to hook me up. It wasn’t long before all the old feelings came around again and I got woozy and vomited. Then I got woozier and vomited more (though in between is always such a nice feeling of relief, isn’t it? It does scare the techs though.)
Finally, I passed out sitting up … and then vomited some more. Fortunately, since I had had to fast all night, there wasn’t much ammunition but it was a most unpleasant reminder of last November when I threw up the whole month. When it was time for the scan they decided that they were not going to have me drink the radioactive kool-aid or inject anything. They didn’t want to take the chance of my doing that in the machine. They sent me to go to the bathroom and while waiting for it to open up I started to get sick again and just made it.
The actual scan(s), however, were uneventful and, I hope, successful. Oh, and in the parking lot going to pick up the car, I did it again. (I rested the rest of the day and played hockey that night so it was not totally debilitating, but still…)
So, I don’t know if it is my old needle aversion coming back or some subconscious reminder of the bad old days when I was deep in the fight against cancer and things didn’t look so good. Does anybody else have similar experiences?
BTW, I have confidence that the scans will show nothing interesting but they’re not clear until they’re clear, eh?