To everyone here,much continued health and happiness to you and your families.
Yesterday the Kidney Doctor told me that I have a 4cm tumor on my right kidney. His exact words were its a tumor, its malignant and its cancer..... Wow..
After that I just went numb. He said he only removes the entire kidney so I have been
referred to someone else in his office that does partial removal but not until next week.
Today I had a chest xray and a bone scan and I am completely petrified.
I have told my family but I still haven't wrapped myself around exactly what all this may mean to me or to them. Talking too much about it with them makes it worse as I am not anywhere near being able to get past my own thoughts and feelings about it.
And actually I don't really know what my feelings are yet if you can understand that.
Seeing it out in the open like this helps a bit gives me some hope that maybe it won't be as bad as I imagine it is or will be. Does this get easier to figure out ?