Jun 15, 2011 - 12:53 am
I am from San Jose, California, currently visiting my Mom in southern Indiana. She has been diagnosed with Stage 4 Adenocarcinoma so I am here for a week working from satellite (SLOW) internet to spend some time with her. My brother from Colorado and my sisters from Arizona and Mississippi are visiting as well. As this is the place I grew up in, it's sad to be here under these cirstances, but it's great that we can all be together.
Mom just got back from the Cancer Treatment Centers of America in Tulsa and seems to be doing a bit better. I have never seen my mother so weak. She complains about various short term pains and all I can do is empathize. It breaks my heart when the best we can do is give her a back rub to make just a little bit better for the moment.
My Dad died almost three years ago from a massive heart attack. At 24, I never imagined I would lose my parents so early on in my life. The scariest thought in my mind right now is that neither of my parents will get the chance to meet the girl I will marry (nor have I yet for that matter), or grand kids from me, or how much honor I bring the people that raised me.
Cancer sucks, to be candid...I guess I should go find some livestrong bracelets.