I am so emotional

tootsie1 said:

*hugs*
Hey, Granny.

If you can work it out, I think it would be good to see a counselor or take part in a support group to discuss these feelings. You have a lot to process right now.

*hugs*
Gail

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Sundanceh said:

A Normal Progression...
Dear GC,

Simply put, your subconscious is working overtime for you right now. Your mind is coming to grips with what you are faced with once again. You already have a good inkling of what you are up against and you're wrestling with that in your mind right now....trying to get a handle and a stopping point where you can assimilate the feeings and emotions that may not be apparent to you on the surface at this time.

Sometimes, the best thing is to just "ride it out" and let your emotions and feelings take you were you need to go. That's a normal release and an outlet - just let it go when you have the need and then when it passes, move forward the best you can.

I think, as a society, that we tend to "over-medicate" everything. Take a pill for this, and take a pill for that - and it will all go away for you. But being medicated all the time, suppresses your inner feelings and hinders part of the healing process - that necessary entity, where you need to have permission to feel the way you do.

Instead of bottling it up, just release it naturally and let it flow - in time, things will return to normal and this will become a thing of the past. You've suffered trauma and the body is just reacting to that trauma.

Of course, if one really needs help with medication, then I fully support that...everyone is different. I've never felt the need, when times like these hit me, I let my emotions and the tears fall (privately) and then I re-directed my energy towards this board and used that event to help others here. That's been a good therapy for me.

My onc even went so far recently to prescribe me Paxil - told him I'm not depressed and that taking a pill was not going to help me with systemic controlled poisoning that was being introduced into my body - I hurt from toxic chemicals and a pill is not going to make that feel any better. He never pushed back after that and I told him I'm not filling it - I'm smart enough to know if I need something like that.

On my journey, I've discovered many things, but emotions are normal with a cancer battle and I think just letting Mother Nature do some of the work, can ease a good many things. The MIND is one of the strongest drugs in our aresenal.

And our MIND has to be right, to FIGHT. So, don't beat yourself up over this.

I'm nearly at 7-years of active fighting with 3 cancer recurrences - 4 major surgeries - and multiple stabs with chemo and radiation. I'm on no medication except chemo.

If you become debilitated or unable to function, a new plan may need to be made - but before that, try riding this cycle out and see where it takes you.

All the best!

-Craig

smokeyjoe said:

I think we all feel the same
I think we all feel the same way, you go for the surgery to remove the cancer.....assume the chemo. will kill off the remaining cancer and hope to have your life back to where it was before this horrible diagnosis.....all I want is my old carefree life back!!! When you see on this board people fighting it back for years I just don't know that I have it in me to do that. I've had three chemo treatments so far, tomorrow will be #4 and I'm sick of going to the hospital already. Chemo is going well, no horrible side effects, but one would wish that once chemo is done there will be no more cancer, but it seems that's not the way it goes, extremely depressing, I too cry at the drop of a hat thinking about what's to come. I think about it constantly.