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My Dad's Been Gone 1 month Today
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Mar 16, 2011 - 1:33 pm
Still hard to believe he's gone. Seems like only days ago, not 4 weeks ago! I went out yesterday to buy a couple nice picture frames to put some of my favorite pictures of him in. One is on the mantle and the other on a table in the family room. It brings some sense of comfort to see a nice, healthy picture of him smiling. That's how I WANT to remember him. But I'm still fighting the images of him in his last days in the hospital bed. That man I did not recognize or know. It's so very hard to watch someone you love slowly morph into this unrecognizable person. And though I do have more memories of him as his "old self", getting those last memories out of one's head is a bit more challenging than I realized. Anyway...just had to "process" a bit I guess. I always think "oh, I'll just jot down a quick thought. And...it always turns into this long, rambling post! LOL. I guess it's healthy though? Helps to just "get it out"! Thanks for listening. My heart goes out to each and every person on this board that is struggling with the loss of a loved one! Gosh, I miss my dad! Blessings, |
Joined: Jul 2010
Thank you for sharing. It helps you and it helps others. Missing my beloved husband, too!
Take care,
Lucy
Joined: Aug 2010
Sally,
It's only been 4 weeks so everything is still fresh in your mind. Sounds like you were good to your dad & loved him so much. Each day, believe it or not it does get easier. You will never forget him and you will have bad days for quite awhile. My hubby, Tom will be gone a year on the 25th and I've been having alot of bad days lately. Can shed a tear at the least little thing. The memories of that horrible night will always be in my mind no matter how hard I try to forget. But when I think of how I was after 4 weeks and compare it to how I am now it's unbelievable. I'm hoping after that 1st anniversary that I will be okay again. Haven't been sleeping good at night and just feel so