Mar 16, 2011 - 1:33 pm
Still hard to believe he's gone. Seems like only days ago, not 4 weeks ago! I went out yesterday to buy a couple nice picture frames to put some of my favorite pictures of him in. One is on the mantle and the other on a table in the family room. It brings some sense of comfort to see a nice, healthy picture of him smiling. That's how I WANT to remember him. But I'm still fighting the images of him in his last days in the hospital bed. That man I did not recognize or know. It's so very hard to watch someone you love slowly morph into this unrecognizable person. And though I do have more memories of him as his "old self", getting those last memories out of one's head is a bit more challenging than I realized.
Anyway...just had to "process" a bit I guess. I always think "oh, I'll just jot down a quick thought. And...it always turns into this long, rambling post! LOL. I guess it's healthy though? Helps to just "get it out"!
Thanks for listening. My heart goes out to each and every person on this board that is struggling with the loss of a loved one! Gosh, I miss my dad!