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Glenna M
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As some of you know I had a CT scan in February and they saw "subtle changes" in my left lung so the scan was being sent to the Cancer Review Board. I finally heard from my rad onc yesterday and he said there was a lesion in my lung but the nodule didn't look the same as the one I had which was NSCLC adenocarcinoma. I went numb at first but after it all sank in I realized that just because there is a nodule in my lung it doesn't mean it's cancerous. Not all nodules are malignant and I was encouraged by the fact that it didn't look the same as the one I was treated for in 2009.

I'm sure you have all already guessed that I will now be playing the "watch and wait" game again. I will be having scans every 3 months to see if it grows. I was also relieved when he told me that the tumor I originally had was no where to be found, he said it appears to have disappeared completely.

I've been getting good reports lately from my ENT, the larynx still looks good and my voice is still strong. So all in all, I'd say I'm doing pretty good, until May when I go for my next scan - LOL - then I'm sure I will be a nervous wreck while I wait for the results. But that's okay, one week of worrying every 3 months isn't so bad :) Until May I intend to enjoy life and forget about everything else.

Hope everyone is doing well and improving daily.

My best to all of you,
Glenna

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Hi Glenna

As you probably remember I have nodules in my lungs also. I go every four months for scans. Almost two years now with no change. Not all nodules are cancerous, amen to that! Congrats on the great response to the NSCLS. One week every three months sucks but you've already dealt with much worse. You have been an inspiration to me all along, thanks.

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Thank you for your encouraging response. I'm happy to hear that you've been through 2 years of scans with no change. I'm sure that's what will happen with me also, it's just the initial shock of hearing that there is a lesion. I guess we all hear the scary part first before we let the encourging news sink in.

You are right about not all nodules being cancerous, I had a biopsy done in February when my ENT found something suspicioius and it was benign and I have no reason to believe that this will be any different.

Keep those good scan reports coming and I will do the same.

My best to you always,
Glenna

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Take the good stuff, which there is lots of for you, with the scary stuff, and enjoy each day as it comes. I'll keep up the happy thoughts :)

April

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Thank you April. I think there's more good stuff then scary stuff right now so I am going to relax and as you said "enjoy each day as it comes". I appreciate the happy thoughts also, they will help see me through each day.

Stay strong,
Glenna

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You are an inspiration to us all! Your positive attitude play's a major role in belping us who are going through the dreaded watch & wait process. Thank you for being who you are & keeping our spirit's up as a few of us go through this process along with you.
God Bless
Roz

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I feel guilty sometimes when I read that others find me an inspiration. If only you knew - LOL. I'm as afraid as everyone else is but find it so easy to be strong for others and encourage them.

For all of us playing the dreaded "watch and wait" game. It could be worse, it could be much worse. I would rather play this game than have him tell me they needed to do a biopsy. Yes, a biopsy would tell immediately if it was malignant or not but it would also mean that the doctors were pretty sure it was cancer. Right now I'm just telling myself not to worry because my doctor isn't and I have all the faith in the world in my medical team.

Thanks again Roz for your sweet words.

God Bless you always,
Glenna

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Morning Glenna...you just knew your scan would have to be somewhat abi-normal, that's who we are and how we roll baby.....

You are always in Shells and my thoughts and prayers,
Sista John, LOL.....

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Thanks "Sista John"!!! Your reply made me laugh out loud. Yes, we of the abi-normal club are quite "unique" aren't we - LOL

Knowing that you and Shelley and all the others of the abi-normal club always keep me in your prayers brings me great peace.

Thank you and everyone on this site for always being there for me.

God Bless,
Glenna

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Watching and waiting with you Glenna. It's not worth the worry right now. Just a little spot. My guess is it'll turn out to be nothing.

Bob

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Yes you are an inspiration! We all get scared sometimes, we all have our bad days, but it's that overall strength, goodness, perseverance and shinning light that you project that makes me love to 'chat' with you. Attitude is everything. :)

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

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Sweet certainly describes you!!! Your response brought tears to my eyes and made me blush. I'm going to have a very hard time living up to your description of me - LOL.

My day wouldn't be complete if we didn't chat, I look forward to it each morning.

Stay well my dear friend,
Glenna

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You're right, it's not worth worrying about and causing needless stress over. I have faith that all will be well.

It's comforting to know that you will be watching and waiting with me.

My best to you,
Glenna

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Glenna,

I agree with Rat and Roz, you've been one of my inspirations on this board. I got this itchy, twitchy feeling that this is nothing to worry about. Positive thoughts coming at ya Glenna!

Greg

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Thank you for the kind words and positive thoughts, I am happy that I have been able to be an inspiration to others here.

If you've got an itchy, twitchy feeling that nothing is wrong then I know I will be alright :)

Stay well,
Glenna

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Greg, when was the last time you washed that fish slime off of your body bro... :)

JG

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Oh no John, is that what's causing Greg's itchy, twitchy feeling? I thought it was caused by his ability to see the future...not fish scales and slime - LOL

No matter what caused it I will continue to believe :)

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Awwww, you just give us all that tingly feeling Glenna.... LOL.

Good Morning and hope you are feeling good and have a great week-end....

Always in our thoughts,
John -N- Shelley

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Glenna, John - LMAO

I thought the doc meant I didn't have to take a shower for 6 months when he said "clean"....Hmmmmm, I thought that new nickname my wife calls me was kinda strange.

I guess no hugs from you two now??

Greg

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Only cyber hugs for you Greg, that's as close as I dare get!!!

Now that you understand what your doctor meant by "clean" please clean up your act...for your wife's sake :)

Stay well and stay CLEAN!!!
Glenna

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I think this is pretty good news. I will continue to pray that all stays the same. I have a good feeling that you are going to okay !

Kathy

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Glenna,
I am so happy you let us all know what is going on. Your perspective on the matter seems so healthy. You remind us all that we could stress about what could be wrong or we could enjoy every moment until we are told otherwise. You are a strong presence on this board, always supporting others. We can watch and wait with you...it is one of the things we do best.
Love,
Kim

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Kim,

I will enjoy all the great company while we watch and wait together :)

I wasn't in a good place emotionally for a few months but I'm back now stronger than ever and ready to encourage others as you have all encouraged me.

Thank you for always being there.

Love to you and Mark,
Glenna

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Thank you for your prayers, I appreciate them very much. If you feel so strongly that I am going to be okay then I certainly don't want to disappoint you :) I feel the same way, I've been through enough in the past 18 months that I'm not going to let this get me down.

Stay well,
Glenna

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Hi Glenna, I'm glad to hear your "no-news-is-good-news." Thanks for all your posts, and "wait and see" is not so bad. One thing this cranky disease has reminded me of is that we are all on a wait and see schedule, cancer or not. I try to cut my worry to one day before news as much as I can. One week out of three months is excellent though. Ever since my first PET/CT, I've been told there is an "abnormality" on my kidney. Has nothing to do with anything, but it's there. They watch it, it watches them. I try to stay out of it as much as possible and keep on going, like all us abbi-normals. Thanks for letting us know.

best, Hal

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I know the feeling of bad news but don’t let it get you down just keep the positive faith my friend

Still in God’s work shop
Hondo

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"Still in God's workshop"

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It is not my saying I used it from a lady who needed a heart transplant, She had the most faith I had ever seen in a person, and I always remember her saying I am still in God’s workshop.

All the best as we are all still in His workshop
Hondo

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I'm not looking at this as bad news yet, just something that my doctors will have to keep a close watch on. I know worrying won't change the results so I am spending my time enjoying each day. Three months is a long ways away and I won't let myself spend that time thinking about this, spring is just around the corner so I am thinking about all the outdoor activities and gardening I will be doing.

Yes, I am still in God's workshop, I know I wouldn't have made it this far without Him, my family and friends and especially all the caring people on CSN who I now consider my friends.

Stay well,
Glenna

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You are right the only good thing about having cancer, is having a lot more friends who are more like family.

God be with you.
Hondo

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I guess everyone could say they are on a wait and see schedule, we all have to wait and see if we will wake up the next morning :) Sorry, just had to say that, it's my weird sense of humor kicking in.

Hope the abnormality on your kidney continues to be nothing to be concerned about.

Stay well,
Glenna

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It's always a good thing to wake up, read the paper and not see your name in the obits....

You're not weird to me....LOL, you're one of the Clan, we get you.

~JG

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LOL John, it would surely scare the crap out of me to see my name in the obits :)

Of course I'm weird, all of us in the Clan are, that's why we all fit together so well.

Have a wonderful weekend and catch some fish for your lovely wife's dinner.

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I am glad you got good??, not bad news. I wouldn't look at it as 3 months to wait. I see it as three months to enjoy life. I grew up in a town called Normal. I have always seen myself as a little ab-normal. Always thinking about you. - Judy

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Love it!!! What a name for a town :) not sure I would fit in though - LOL.

Actually Judy, I'm not looking at it, or thinking about it much at all. I'm putting it out of my mind until I get the call that they have scheduled my next scan. I know it could be caused by many things and I would only drive myself crazy trying to think of all the scenarios. The only thing I know definitely is that it's a lesion but the nodule doesn't look like the one I had in 2009 when I was diagnosed. I'm taking that as a good sign!!

I fully intend to spend my time enjoying life and living as healthy a lifestyle as I can. If it is something I know that I can kick its butt!!

Hope you are doing well and feeling much better.

Stay strong,
Glenna

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Hi Glenna:

I would say that was good news and is positive. You've been so good to give me encouraging words thru Charlie's ordeal and I just returned from 10 day vacation so just now checking in. Your in my prayers!

Jan (aka basketcase!)

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Gotta love your attitude, girl- inspiration for all of us.

kcass

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Kent, you wouldn't have wanted to see me for the first day after receiving this news - LOL. Fortunately I calmed myself down and stopped thinking of the negative and convinced myself that this would turn out positive...Positively good!!

Stay well,
Glenna

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That's the attitude I'm talking about, girl. Oh yeah.

kcass

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I just read your post about your trip and was pleased that you were able to go and enjoy yourself.

You are always in my prayers,
Glenna

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Thank you for being who you are and thank you for being my inspiration!
God bless us all
Pieter

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It's posts like this that help me to stay strong. If I can help others it helps me to feel better about myself and we all know that we have to stay emotionally strong as well as physically.

Stay well,
Glenna

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