Feb 23, 2011 - 2:07 pm
Hi everyone, sorry it's been a month since my first post, but it's been a hard month. We just found out last week that my mom's colon cancer is now in her pancreas. 3 different strands have come into the pancreas (i'm not sure where). Has anyone had this happen to them? She's in a lot of pain that radiates through her midsection and goes up to her shoulders. I looked it up and found that the pancreas is only 17 cm's in length and 3 cm's wide. (How can something so small cause so much pain?) And each strand has already grown by another 1/2 cm a piece in 1 week. They told her that now, the only option is expeiramental treatments because the cancer; where it is right now, is inoperable. I had no idea that the pancreas was so small, it was devistating to hear but i'm still trying to stay so calm and positive for her. Now i'm having panic attacks at the thought of her not being here anymore. I do very well infront of her because I know that my pain is nothing compared to her's and i feel so selfish when I cry. I've been trying to read up on cancer in the Pancreas, but I haven't found a lot of information on how to help the pain. They have her on Morphine and Oxicotton (which is only taking the edge off the pain), she barely gets any sleep because of the pain, i'm not sure if there is anything I can do or she can take or eat or drink that will make her feel any better. Any advise or information would be appreciated.
I'm so very gratefull that you guys are here to talk to. No one around me really understands why I break down sometimes. I feel so lost right now and I don't know what to do anymore for her. I'm a person who tries to see the silver lining and who tries to see that everything happens for a reason, but I just can't see why on this one. And I can't find my silver lining anymore.