Feb 23, 2011 - 4:28 am
For the past month I have been by my husband's side. I have not left him. We are close and that has never been a questioning factor in our relationship.
After his colon surgery, I have helped him in all ways; going to the bathroom, showering him, feeding etc. We came home and I have got his strength back to where he can fend for himself. He can't drive or lift over 5lbs yet, but that's okay. I have always handled misc dr appointments, fix dinner, deal with financial stuff, while working and tending to our daughter.
He is healing. He told me the other day that he doesn't need me any more. Those words cut like a knife.
He hasn't started chemo yet, so I know that chemo isn't to blame,
I am heading back to work today, against my own will. He was running a fever again last night, so I don't feel that he is ready for me to go back to work. I see him weak. Not like after his surgery, just not himself.
He acts differently. He won't talk. His family doesn't come around.
Am I being selfish? I don't want him sick, just would like things back to somewhat normal before he got sick.
I don't know maybe I am making a mountain out of a mole hill. But the words hurt me