Feb 22, 2011 - 6:07 pm
I was diagnosed with pc in October 2008, Gleason 7 (3+4), PSA 12 and had the surgery on Nov 11, 2008. The surgeon said the cancer had not spread but unfortunately it had and it showed up on a PSA test the following September. I had 39 radiation treatments starting January 2010 and had one year of Lupron shots starting December 2009.
Now the Lupron has been discontinued and my first post Lupron PSA test is next month (March 2011) and it is very difficult for me to face it even though all post radiation PSA test results have been undetectable.
The Drs told me that they got the cancer back in December 2008 but it came back. I just want to scream. I feel helpless and things are out of control. There is also a lot of anger issues since I was only 60 when the Dr diagnosed the pc.
The anger I am dealing with but how do you bring about a sense of control in your life when you have no control over the cancer returning? I tried to live healthy by losing weight, eating better and exercising but the cancer still occurred.
How do you keep up moral when you do not know what the next test result will be? How do you deal with the fear that the cancer will return? It is easy to say to focus on this or that but it becomes more difficult as the date for the test gets closer and you have to do the test every six weeks to three months.
I have tried counseling on this issue with mixed results and the local support group only meets once a month and I really need something more than that. My partner is supportive but he has his own issues to deal with on this.
Any suggestions would really be appreciated as I am really going thru a discouraged period now.