Feb 10, 2011 - 11:11 pm
4 months ago I led the perfect life. Then we found out my 37 year old husband had stomach cancer. From there the downward spiral began. We have a 4 year old daughter who has watched her dad go from 175lbs to just 123lbs. We keep trying chemo but of course nothing is working and cancer just keeps spreading. We went in for an endoscope monday and they said his cancer is pushing against his stomach so much that he can't seem to eat. The doctor told us don't worry about eating as much as drinking. My husband used to love to eat and cook. Now it is a struggle to take just a few bites of food and hope that it isn't puked right back up. I know his time on this earth is drawing to an end, we all do. How will I cope? Will my daughter even know who her wonderful dad was? I don't want to watch him suffer anymore. It just breaks my heart every day to see him like this. How will I know the time is right? Will he die in his sleep? I am so lost I don't know what to do. I wish I could just rewind my life and not have to endure this anymore.