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zinniemay
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Today Hubby (Greg) when for Ct scan.. Saw doctor said everything looked good,lungs sound good, but have not seen Ct scan report yet..Came home Doctor called, the tumors in Greg's Lungs had started to grow.One is 4 (was 3) one was 4 (7). Now will have to choose Chemo again or wait for the tumors to grow a little more so he would be able to do one or two Clinicl trials. If he goes for Chemo them would have to wait 28 days to flush out of system.
Heart is pounding can't think can't spell worth crap. Tears rolling down my face so scared.

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zinniemay
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Rose we did chat last night . My hubby start After Dx Jan 2009 Larynx cancer. He had Chemo and Rads they got it all in his Larynx but it spread to lungs four tumors So May of this year he started Chemo again Carboplatin every three weeks his shrank 35-40% the first to round, stayed stable , Nov 16 last Chemo Dec had scan and still same Feb 7 had Scan they have grown , So Feb 24 we will go back to see what doctors think we should do.
I am truely sorry about your mom. I do know the helpiness feelings all so well.
Thank you and bless you for thinking of us.
Jennie

imjb73
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I know I'm sorry doesn't help much. I wish you would have had better news. Hang in there. I can offer you friendship and a good ear. Make sure to take care of you as well as hubby.

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zinniemay
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Thank you friendship is a good thing to have now. I am truely blessed by all you people who know the feeling and the fear. It is hard to go threw this and feel alone . Thank you so very much.
Jennie

3Mana
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Jennie,
Why does this disease have to destroy so many lives of such good people? It seems like one day your hopes are up and then they get knocked down again.
I just got some news tonite that my hubby, Tom's niece passed away today from pancreatic cancer. She's been fighting this for a year and a half. Her mom passed away in 2009 from stomach cancer and my husband last year on March 25th.
I only hope that I can make it through the funeral. I just know all the memories will come back to me again and it's going to be hard.
Tomorrow, Tom & I would've been married 47 years.
Well, hope things go okay when he starts chemo again. "Carole"

ms.sunshine
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I know your heart is beating irregular. The helpless feeling. It all just sucks. Cry, scream, vent whatever gets you thru. Hang in there.

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zinniemay
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Thank you all so much, you will never truely know how much confort your words are to me. I stuggle with words everyday. I know I could not have made it this far with out you all holding me up and sometimes picking me up as I fall apart.
Some times I want to ask why? But I don't I want to scream why, but I don't. This is a road I have seen over and over, never quite got the full picture. So I Think it is a lesson in faith of one's heart. I have many questions and few answers. Cancer is a word I wish would be no more. but is wishes were dishes I would have a set that we all could set down to dinner and talk. I would not want to wash them all!
Humor is the way I try to cope. I need to remeber this and not be a downer. There is always hope. One Day we will see a cure.

neverquit
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Jennie, I too wish I knew what to say to help ease the pain and fear; I know those feelings all too well. For what it's worth, my prayers are with you and your husband. And please remember. you are NEVER alone!!!! I too have found that the people here know how we feel and offer their love and support. Many hugs.

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Pennymac02
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Jennie,
My friend, you're not alone. The fear and the unknown are awful, as any caregiver will tell you. I will continue to pray for you both; for wisdom and strength for you as well as the doctors. ((hugs))
Penny

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Pennymac02
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Jennie,
My friend, you're not alone. The fear and the unknown are awful, as any caregiver will tell you. I will continue to pray for you both; for wisdom and strength for you as well as the doctors. ((hugs))
Penny

Noellesmom
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Thinking about you, Zinnie, as you and your husband process this information and make a decision on how to move forward.

Hugs.

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luz del lago
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Jennie,
You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Lucy

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grandmafay
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The roller coaster ride continues. Those scans can really bring us down. I remember the feeling. You truly are not alone. Once a decision is made as to how to continue, things seem to get a little better. Hold tight to each other and move forward one step at a time. Don't let fear of the future take over the present. Not easy. My prayers are with you both. Hugs, Fay

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zinniemay
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I think the first day fear, does set in. Each day is different , but still that roller coaster ride. I just keep thinking hold on , we will get there one way or another. Tears, can be to much. I think what if but am reminded this is today and we are together. I am trying one day and a time. Thank you so very much Fay, Lucy, Penny and all you that have took time to think of us. It does help us focus on the positive things.
Always wanted to take a train trip! So we decided to Take the train to Ann Arbor for his next doctor's app. and spend the night there Then ride the train home. So maybe in the smallest things we do will bring joy into our life...
Love you all
Debbie caked included.
Jennie

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UKLady
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Hi Zinniemay

apologies for delay in posting- have been in emergency appointments for a week for Steve's nerve pain. I have so hated the icy weather to slide in.

I am sending my kindest thoughts to you my friend and hugs for both of you

Take care and mind yourselves

Lyndsey

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zinniemay
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Lyndsey , Thank you, I know all you people know these feeling . It is hard to know what to say or do each day. We just find a way to get through them.
Thank you and all for the kind words they do help.
Jennie

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