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pinkflutterby
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never ever in my almost 2 year battle has my Onc called me in to go over blood work in person, she wants to see me tomorrow at 11am, she called my mom last week to schedule it and called my # today to confirm. I'm worried!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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pinkkari09
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Sending thoughts of peace and comfort to you, I hope it's just because it's too hard to go over on the phone, maybe doc wants to use pictures or the magic eraser board, mine loves to draw for me. Praying for news that you can handle, stay strong sister, and keep us posted.
Big Big Hugz,
~Kari

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aisling8
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Of course you're worried. Freaked out probably!!

All I can do is validate your feelings and promise to hold you in my thoughts. I send you lots of positive energy (and I'm actually feeling peppy today:)

I'm so sorry cause I know you're going to sit In fear till tomorrow cause that's exactly what I would do. I'm waiting with you.

Gigantic hugs,
Victoria

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dyaneb123
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Scary. Hate those phone calls. Try to stay positive, even though it's hard.You may be making it worse in your mind then anything she really has to say....so deep breath...
Hugs
Dee

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Kylez
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I bet she just wants to go over it in person because she has a lot to say, or, maybe because she hasn't seen you in awhile? Try to stay calm Libby and know that I am praying for you.

Hugs, Kylez

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DianeBC
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I'm sending gigantic hugs to you too! Can you watch a movie, take a hot bath, or, something to help you to relax and sleep?

Hugs, Diane

sal314
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I'm so sorry you have to play the waiting game. It's the worst! I know it's not easy, but just try to remain calm. Until you know exactly what you are dealing with, it's not worth worrying about. Though that's much easier said than done!

Hang in there. No matter what it is your doctor wants to talk to you about, you can handle it! You are a strong woman and have already come so far!

I'll be praying for peace and calm for you! :)

Blessings,
Sally

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susie09
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I'd be worried too Libby, but, know that I am praying and crossing my fingers and toes for you.

You're so loved by all.

Hugs and prayers!

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Christmas Girl
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I'd be scared & worried, too. Who amongst us wouldn't be? Not one, I think.

There COULD be many other reasons your doctor requested tomorrow's appointment - different than what you fear. As Kari has already offered. So, that's what I'll HOPE for...

January has been a horrific month for this group. Tomorrow is February 1st - Kari was already on my calendar; now, I've added you, too. Hoping the date being a "first" will bring you both some much needed good - no great! - luck. Hoping for good news, better news.

Sending cyberhugs, while you wait...

Kind regards, Susan

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You have a right to be scared Libby, but, please try to only think positive, as I am. And, you know I am saying a prayer for you at this very minute, and, will continue.

We are all here for you no matter what!

You are so loved, so admired, and, a huge asset to all of your pink sisters.

Please post when you can to let us know how your appointment went.

Sue :)

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RE
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Understandably so Pink, do what you can to get your mind off of it today, read a good book, watch a comedy just do what makes you happy. You are in my thoughts and prayers!

RE

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aysemari
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my oncologist always discusses my results with me. Try to be cold blooded and not let
your emotions lead you. Don't stress your precious little self till you have a valid reason.

I am sending you hugs to comfort you and tie you
over till tomorrow, when you will know more.

Love,
Ayse

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pinkflutterby
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now the weather says freezing rain and winter warning hope it doesnt keep me from the docs!!!

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Kylez
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You are getting that awful weather they talked about on the news? Hoping you can make your appointment safe and sound!

survivorbc09
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My oncologist also HAS to see me in his office. I think he can charge more if I actually show up. LOL

Thinking and praying for you Libby.

Hugs, Jan

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missrenee
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in detail and in person. Waiting is the pits though, but I'm sending you every ounce of positive energy I have for great results. Hopefully you'll be able to get there inspite of the bad weather headed across the country.

We're all with you.

Hugs, Renee

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pinkflutterby
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this has really been a rotten day.... my daughter in law's car was broken into this morning, my son busted his lip on the trampolene and broke a tooth!!! He is 23 & should of known better!!!!! Now its going to snow and ice hey this is Texas!!!! then my onc calls me in.................... and my 10 year old starts her ortho on Thursday.

I need to just go to bed and start over on WEDNESDAY!!!

staying strong and brave telling myself she just wants to change my meds up... since the other doc took me off all my meds for almost a month!

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Kylez
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You are always so positive and uplifting to everyone on this board Libby, and, now you need to turn that uplifting and positive attitude towards yourself.

You have had a crappy day, but, let's think positive. It will get better!!!

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fauxma
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Libby,
It is so understandable that you are worried. The tests, visits etc. are stressful enough and then when something is done differently than our "norm" we go into hyperdrive on the worry. You may have a point about the meds. Maybe things she is seeing in the test results indicate a need to go back on meds. And then to have all the other issues, broken teeth, crooked teeth, and ice and snow, Yikes, it is like overload. I like the wanting to go to bed and starting over Wednesday. Would that it were that easy, huh? But I will keep you in my prayers and send big hugs. I will be at my oncology appointment at 11:15 and I will be thinking of you. Mine is just the 4 or is it 6 months regular visit and should be uneventful.
So hang in there Libby and let us know what the oncologist has to say.
Stef

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DebbyM
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Praying for you Libby and sending warm hugs to you!

Will be looking for a post from you tomorrow.

Hugs, Debby

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Alexis F
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Libby, I am sending you prayers and hoping that you won't have the bad weather, so, you can make your oncologist appointment.

You have been so great to keep us updated on Mama G and you always have the best attitude I have ever seen from anyone.

You are cherished on this board!

Lex

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linpsu
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It's understandable that you are worried - I know I would be. Try to think positive thoughts (I know, easier said than done), and be sure to keep us posted. We are sending lots of hugs and prayers to you, dear friend.
Love,
Linda

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Double Whammy
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What kind of blood work did you have done, Libby? Of course, you're worried and I will worry and fret along with you. She must want to explain something . . . .

Suzanne

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pinkflutterby
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just the regular work, including tumor markers. I'm thinking my markers jumped they were the low 2o in Oct, jumped to the 40's November and she took them again last wednesday so I'm thinking they jumped ALOT because I was off the chemo......

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CR1954
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I'm always told "don't borrow trouble." But I worry about things also. Boy, do I worry!

First of all, I hope February is much better for you...for all of us. Also hoping that the storm, especially the freezing rain holds off or misses you completely.

Praying for things to be fine tomorrow and that the results of your bloodwork are also fine. I believe that you will have many pink sisters accompanying you for your onc visit.

Hugs,
CR

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sea60
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will be okay! I also pray that God gives you a peace beyond human understanding as you wait to see him.

Sending you hugs,

Sylvia

roseann4
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If I had big decisions to make, i would want everyone who is important in my life to be there. There are so many treatment options available. Maybe you have some new options to consider. Try to stay positive and ask what new treatments are available. Please don't panic.

Roseann

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DianeBC
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Wish we could all wrap our arms around you to comfort you. I know we are all trying in our own way. Good luck today Libby!

With you in spirit,

Diane

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Bella Luna
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It is scary and nerve racking. I pray God grant you peace of mind and heart as you go in tomorrow to meet with your doctor. Is your mother going with you tomorrow? I hope someone goes with you to offer support. As you know... your Sisters will be there in spirit holding your hand, sending positive energy, and lifting you up in prayer.
BL

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phoenixrising
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It's hard not to worry and I don't think that ever ends. I hope it all goes well for you. Maybe it is just going over your treatment plan. Deep breaths :)
hugs
jan

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Eil4186
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I can understand your worry. The waiting is always hard because we tend to imagine the worst. Your onc may just feel more comfortable explaining results in the office. Whatever she has to say, we will be here for you and it will be ok. I am sending prayers for you. Eil

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I would bet that it will just take to long to go over on the phone. And your Dr just wants to give you the time and attention you need and deserve. Try not to worry we are all with you all the way. You will feel us sitting with you the room will be crowded tomorrow!! take care darlin your in my prayers Kay

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pinkflutterby
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thanks to everyone!!! My mom and sister are going with me promise to post as soon as I am back home!!!!

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jnl
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Your oncologist probably just misses your presence and wants you in person! After all, you are one amazing woman! We all know it, so, I am sure she does too.

Happy that your Mom and Sister will go with you. Please post!

Hugs, Leeza

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jnl
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Your oncologist probably just misses your presence and wants you in person! After all, you are one amazing woman! We all know it, so, I am sure she does too.

Happy that your Mom and Sister will go with you. Please post!

Hugs, Leeza

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CandaceMM
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I'm sending positive and peaceful vibes your way!! I'm also in Texas and this cold front is wreaking havoc with my surgery scheduled on Friday in Houston. I have to say, today was a horrible day in my book, too! Things have to get better! Stay Strong!

Keep us posted,
candace

cathg
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Dear Flutterby

I pray that God protects your mind as you sleep. That he reaches down and covers you with His love. Waiting is hard, and I pray that she is a kind, considerate doctor that likes to see her patients instead of a phonecall. One step at a time. .
lol and a big hugxx

Katz77
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Prayers for peace and comfort. Strength. Will pray extra hard for you and your mom. Big cyber hugs,Katz

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carkris
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hoping for good news Libby, keep us posted. It is probably info they want to talk to you about face to face. I would think they would want to see you immediately if it was really bad news

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DebbyM
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Drive careful tomorrow! You are an inspiration on this board!

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taleena
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I hope you are able to find some peace tonight and get some rest... I know it's not easy....I will be sending positive thoughts your way, and saying extra special prayers.

Hugs,
~T

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taleena
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I hope you are able to find some peace tonight and get some rest... I know it's not easy....I will be sending positive thoughts your way, and saying extra special prayers.

Hugs,
~T

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taleena
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I hope you are able to find some peace tonight and get some rest... I know it's not easy....I will be sending positive thoughts your way, and saying extra special prayers.

Hugs,
~T

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Cinkal
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Sorry to hear. This is all new to me, but it seems to be somewhat of a roller coaster ride. Good luck and positive thoughts coming your way.

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Texasgirl10
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I'm so sorry that you are going through this. You have every right to be afraid. These docs should know better than to call and say they need to see us in their office and not offer an explaination. That is the worse thing that they can do to us. I will be praying for you starting now. Stay strong and know that we are all here standing beside you and holding your hand. I'm also waiting on the freezing rain and ice here in good ol central Texas :)

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ladyg
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Try not to worry. I know that is a hard thing to do though. I know I would be worried too. If you go out in the nasty weather it sounds like you are having please be careful. I will keep you in my thoughts that all will be well for you.

Hugs,
Georgia

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lynn1950
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The waiting game is the worst. I'll be thinking of you tomorrow and I'm hoping that you are sleeping with sweet dreams as I type. xoxoxoxo Lynn

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VickiSam
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going thru ... ugjhhhhh. Prayers and positive vibes coming your way, Libby.

Strength and Courage for you.

Vicki Sam

pattimc
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Hate the waiting, too!!! Hope the ice won't keep you away! We're expecting over a foot of snow in Michigan! Glad you have family going with you for suppport. We are all there with you, too.

Holding your hand......

Love, Patti

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