Jan 24, 2011 - 3:19 am
I am going thru the "i dont' know stages of this". I call it that cuz i dont' know why my cancer has come back. I am strong and want to get stronger. I am trying to have faith inside me that this will be last sessions of chemo and this will stay hidden......for good! I will not let this beat me, no statistic, no nothing is going to get to me, and destroy my strength.......Then I start wondering if I will make it again, am I just kidding myself and wont' make it thru. I am going to mayo clinic this week for second opinon. I trust my oncologist he suggest a trip to make sure we got this covered and hepefully make sure on right track. I am thinking strong thots, and yet times throughout day it's back to being angry and hurt how could this return. I got the uterous taken out a year ago, along with appendiz that was affected by it. How come after 6 sessions of chemo, and only about 7 months of remission did this happen. Did i eat something, or not enough sleep or??? questions go on forever. I am losing my power to fight this sometimes, other times i say no your not thinking this way,,, am strong and going to beat this and keep it away.