Jan 08, 2011 - 9:52 am
This morning I spent the first moments alone since my love passed away. I thought that it was something I needed, as I have been surrounded with love and care continuously since Dec. 20th. I've cried, I've danced with my arms raised as in holding him. I've asked him why did he leave me. I've asked God why did Dennis have to go. I suppose I've been keeping the hard emotions in check while my loved ones are around as to not worry them, so perhaps this venting, crying, raw display of emotion will be a step in releasing. I don't want to feel this way, but I know that I must go through this scary, dark tunnel in order to come out into the light on the other side.
Thank you all for being here for me.