Jan 02, 2011 - 3:37 pm
Today is our precious granddaughter's 2nd Birthday and my heart is so sad that grampy won't be here! Made it through Christmas and new year, but today I am missing him so! 14 days, and there are moments that my mind thinks he is going to come through the door. I know that God is holding me right now, but today I actually asked Him why did my love have to go? So many dreams left to live. So many building projects in our little home at the lake left to build. So much love I have left to give to him. I know no answer would satisfy this anguish so I suppose that is why there is none. I had faith that somehow my love would be able to survive longer. I had faith in a tomorrow for us. I don't know what to have faith in now? My dear ones tell me it is in God and in myself. That through the pain I will come out the other side and treasure the life I now have. I will begin to have faith in that. Will need alot of prayers and hope.