Dec 28, 2010 - 4:57 pm
Writing this from the hospitaL.
Well got my husband to the family doc but went from there by ambulance to hospital. Thought he was going to die last night but he pulled through. His blood pressure is 90 over 40 something (now) which is much improved and now he has a low grade fever. We will be discussing his hospice options when the onc and hospice evaluate him tomorrow. He wants to come home for a few days and walk around - there's no way he can walk. He doesn't want a hospital bed either. I can't care for him by myself even if hospice sends someone in once a day. We will see if he qualifies for the hospice center (two - three weeks left to live). If he does we have to convince him the hospice center would be the best course of action. I am emotionally spent from my sister's death and husband's illness. I just don't have it in me to be able to care for him myself and still work (even at home). So tomorrow we will see our options. I don't know if he'll even make it through the week. I guess only God knows. Wearing a prayer shawl my friend gave me. She asked someone in her church to make it for me and the pastor and everyone in the congregation prayed over it. I'm feeling the love.
My daughter is here right now (I'm so glad) and my son is coming Thursday night. I hope Paul makes it until then.
That's all I know right now. I never expected him to go down this fast. We had such a great Christmas. He was so happy to get his Giants NFL jersey. He looked great in it and he wanted us to take pictures with him - very unusual so I guess he knew he was crashing. I'm so glad I put up the tree. It came out beautiful. I'll always have that memory.
Please continue your prayers for my husband and my family. Your support and prayers mean the world to us.
Thank you so much.