Dec 21, 2010 - 3:51 pm
Okay, the past 2 months have been not so wonderful. I had mentioned that my beloved brother in law passed away from cancer, and his memorial was 2 weeks ago. My sister is having a very difficult time. His birthday would have been Christmas Eve.
Today is the anniversary of my other sister's death in 1997, always a sad day for me. She hated winter and died on the first day of winter from cancer too.
My RA is very active, have had some very bad flairs. I had a Rituxan treatment last week for it but takes several weeks for the benifits to show. My Reumatologist allowed me to be in pain, untreated, as it got worse and worse, for 4 wks. I've had this doc for 23 yrs but it looks like time to look for a new one. Will have another Retixan treatment this coming Monday. Will get 1,000ccs this time. That is a lot and am a little nervous about it. Always hard to go back into OOU for treatments.
I had my CT scans last week and got the results today. Mostly they are good. My onc feels I'm still in remission. However, don't you just hate those howevers, my spleen didn't look right on the scan. He ordered an ultrasound but hospital can't do it until January. So I get to worry and wait. The report said it looks like it could be my lymphoma recurring, my onc thinks not. Let's hope it's not as I just finished chemo in February 2010, and that would be really really bad.
Now last but not least........my cat was diagnosed yesterday with lymphoma of the intestines and spleen. He has an enlarged spleen and large nodes around his stomach and intestines. Sue, you'll love this, he's now on daily preds for the rest of his life.....I am not LOL about doing this to him. He was flying yesterday, hungry and off the walls. They want to do a needle biopsy and give him CHOP chem. I can't believe my cat has the same disease as me and in the same location. And being offered the same treatment I just finished. It makes me sick just thinking about it. Guys I just can't watch my cat die from the same illness that I have and I just don't know what to do. My heart is breaking for him. Any help, assistance, ideas will be greatly appreciated. The outcome is very bleak for NEO.
I just really want a break from cancer. But than I think we all do. I've been so on overdrive that I havn't had much time, energy or resources to give much back but know I love you all and admire all your strength and compassion.
Thanks for bearing with me and taking the time to read this very long post. Prayers and assist. will be appreciated.
Blessings to you,