Oct 16, 2010 - 8:19 am
Sigh. I wrote about it before so won't bother you with the details but tests came back 'borderline' regarding one componant of urine tests - metanephron numbers, so did a 48 hour urine collection test and took it into the hospital for the lab yesterday. Now the wait for results.
I am a 22 year survivor of NHL for those of you who don't know me, the cancer was cured years ago but have been living with major side effects from treatments ever since. Don't usually worry about recurrance at all but when I get new symptoms like now I'm not stupid either - even with the chemobrain. lol.
Back aches bad enough to need a hot waterbottle and I know different types of back pain cause I have back pain for two different health issues and on morphine for it but this is a different pain and guess where - yup around the kidneys and lower back. Talked to the kidney cancer group and symptoms match but then again not jumping to conclusions as some of them are symptoms of other stuff it could be too.
Worried. Just generally not feeling well either which is another concern. Waiting too for another test for another issue that will probably need exploratory surgery - terrific, just what I need - NOT.
Waiting waiting waiting waiting. After 22 years of it on and off just getting a little sick of it. Sorry for barfing this all up on you but I know most of you don't mind and can relate. Something feels different about this test and these symptoms - you know that feeling 'this is different'.
Oh well, no choice but to wait and pray and hope. I am not above begging either and am doing that too. Stupid 'waiting' thang.
Hope all of you are better today than yesterday but not half as good as you will be tomorrow.