Visit with the Ortho Surgeon

Much like one of the post getting tired of trying to make them see what shape I am in and after not getting the MRI of the lumps in my arm along with the shoulder that were to be done really takes its toll on the ability to try and stay oh so positive.
I more concerned about the lumps but because of the pain level and the problems I have been having, caused my handsome orthoman to finally look at shoulder since he truly didn't believe the lumps could be that much of a problem.
Pain and I have been partners since my battle with the beast the result of being treated something I did willingly and knowing all the risks. I fought for years trying to get the quality back in my life on much medication for years just trying to live. Finally I got off all the meds after about 4 years including methadone a great pain med. After about 7 years of working hard and getting into incredible shape the world turns again for me. Months later no closer to knowing what the big lump is and they don't care about it and today finding out that the MRI of my shoulder now shows that it is terribly arthritic and I have known for years I have serveral types so should I be that surprised after all my years of heavy labor,
One thing I always remind myself that if I am not happy with answers I keep asking and bringing the problems up when he want to walk out the door like having it on record. His tone has changed because there are big problems and now I need surgery and yes I am glad once agian it isn't just in this big fat head of mine once again knowing I am in trouble.
Thank God for partners medical plan because I would be hooped without it, already in hard ship because I really haven't worked since May.
Wow wonder how long this will take before I am able to get a life. I am sad because I am one of those physical workers and never did well at the office or with regular working hours because I am such a morning person.
People think that I am one who easily adjusts to what is handed to them and I think I have had to in the past but today wonder if I can do this all again with more waiting and having surgery once again, another way to get a few side affects.
Thanks for listening or reading I should say. I am very grateful not the beast but that too doesn't change all I have been through and more to come.
Doing another MRI of the arm in a month or within the next month to make sure the lump hasn't changed he doesn't want to remove if they can't see it. I did remind him that I have a friend that had biopsies of breast and then had 24 more biopsies in her the same breast because they didn't know what the lump was nothing was conclusive. They were glad they did because they found low grade cancer and then when removed it she had another tumor behind that they didn't see or get.
So many stories so many lives,
Tara