Yes Saturday was the day but turns out that was the day I could have truly lost it too. I find out when they are setting me up that they are only doing my shoulder though the week before I was assured they were do the arm the lumps I am most concerned about.
No just the shoulder was requested and I lost it. I was on some new sleeping medication and I did not wake up myself though slept like a log for the first time in months. Then I find out this, well I am not proud of myself but I could of walked right out of there and spared myself the hour of tears in the machine.
I am no closer to getting anwsers about the lump that come back inconclusive no matter the scan. They see no need to find out what it is believing it is just nothing to worry about. Guess they should read stories on this site to know I am not over reacting. Now I have written a letter to the doctors who will consult on my case before I see surgeon on the 20th of September and let them know I need to get back to work and feel the only reason health has improved is because I am not traumatising my body trying to work through the physical pain and nauseas. My arm doesn't work like it use to and I can't get them to see this.
I am tired and wonder how I will keep up the fight when I wonder if there is help out there for me these days.
There are enough stories to know that diagnosing whatever it is early can help to save lives as well as help to improve quality of lives. Wonder where I fit in with all of this.