I am having some issues with a friend of mine...she is having some problems with..ok life in general....work..husband..etc..etc.
Her husband troubles are nothing new...he is a slug..they bearly commuinicate...do nothing together..they orbit in two separate worlds...but again this is nothing new.
But I am having problems now with listening to her go on and on about how horrible her life is...I mean seriously...am I wrong in feeling that at least she has a husband to go home to ?...and wishing she could see that talking about her husband/life problems only bring up emotional pain for me.
I just want her to be quiet...another thing that she is doing is going on and on about how she "accidently" met up with an old school "friend" on facebook and has been "talking" with him on a daily basis....this too is really pushing my buttons...seeing as she has a living breathing spouse at home.
Our relationship is on its last legs...there have been more than a few times since Bill passed that she showed a total lack of understanding towards me...most glaring was the time I called her in tears during one of my bad moments...her answer was for me to go shopping....so shopping would make me feel better about my husband dying?
Another problem is that after booking my cruise..which I intended to go on alone...I felt compelled to ask her to join me...at my expense and of course she accepted the offer...I really think I made a huge mistake...I want to take back the invite and go alone...it was supposed to be a time for me to reflect and just relax....no work...no stress...solitary if I wanted to be...yet be amongst people.....my heart is telling me that I need to fix this or the trip will not have the meaning for me that I intended it to have...this was supposed to be "our" cruise.
Guessing I am having some problems dealing with people in general....I have no tolerance....and I feel that I am going into another period of anger...it scares me...I know I will get though this.
Thanks for letting me vent....