Jul 26, 2010 - 10:31 pm
Last year i was directed to this site,I was lost,had surgery to remove the baby oven, appendix due to clear cell carcinoma stage IV. I was told about chemo treatments, losing my hair, and so much more, was scared, didnt' know what to do, and this site was suggested, and I took a chance, with tears in my eyes i wrote my story in January I believe. A lady answered me almost immediately on here, she was still in middle of cancer treatments,and having her difficulties gave up more time for me than anyone I have known thru this trial of mine. We exchanged email address's and have written daily since my first letter. She gave me strength, she reassured me of my life, my hair would come back when i cried over several emails that I was so distraught about my hair, she told me that I was strong, beautiful and it's hair, it'll come back. I was also separated from my husband and she reminded me that it would be okay, that if when all this was over as in chemo that I would get "me" back and my life would come together. We live so far from each other her in California and me in Nebraska........Today my beautiful friend lies in a coma in hospital a tumor has grown significantly and pushing on her organs, pushing on her lungs,causing so many other problems like water on her lungs. Her sister tells me that she is not breathing on her own, and she is being helped by respiratory,and her kidneys now failing. She's been in ICU for days, and i didn't know what to do, asked her sister to put the phone to her ear so I could tell her how much she has meant to me, her friendship and laughter, and we still have more talking to do. Today her sister tells me they only give her 2 days. I am beside myself with sadness. Diane gave me so much, today I am in remission after 7 months of chemo and strength coming from her. I was given a beautiful friend, I cherish her, love her dearly like we have known each other for years. I do feel like I never gave enough, here I am, and she is in a state that is so unbelieveable to me, she does not deserve any of this.