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Triple Whammy
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Jun 21, 2010 - 3:25 pm
Yesterday was a triple whammy for me. It was that day again, the 20th of the month. I lost Doug on that date eight months ago. It was also our first Fathers Day without him and my birthday. We got to my son's home after midnight, early Sunday morning. I decided to spend the night rather than driving home. When we got up later that morning, my son and family took me to a birthday brunch. I actually got home about 2:00PM. We had a great vacation and cruise, but I came home by myself to an empty house. Will we ever get used to that? I know I have a full summer with several family times. My teenaged grandchildren and I are driving to PA in July. A couple of the grandkids are coming here for Vacation Bible School next week. Yet I still feel this emptiness. My fibromyalgia is flaring a bit, and I am really fatigued. I am sure that is adding to it. I am sure others struggled through that first Fathers Day, too, especially those with children still at home and those who recently lost a father. Please take care of yourselves, Fay |
Joined: Apr 2010
Hi Fay
Wow you better believe you had a triple whammy, I am happy that your son and family took you out to brunch, I know that you don't want to but you have to let the family celebrate your birthday, I don't think the emptyness will ever get better, how could it after having your love with you for all those years and then they are gone, it is not anything that we can get used to. I know what you mean the house is still empty even when there are people there, You probably didn't rest enough on vacation, we never do, there are so many things to do, maybe that is why your fibromyalgia is acting up, do you take any medication for it?, try to rest a little hopefully it will feel better.
Fathers day my son, daughter in law and grandkids were over for the day, compared to Johnny's birthday the week before it was not as hard, his birthday was a killer. I sometimes still feel that I am dreaming, and going to wake up soon.
Hope you feel better
Hugs
Karen
Joined: May 2008