May 31, 2010 - 2:07 pm
I was diagnosed with Prostate Cancer on June 15, 2009 at the VA Hospital in Madison, WI. Initially they told me I was had a Gleason score of 8 which is aggressive and fast growing. It took the VA until Oct. 13, 2009 to finally surgically remove the cancer that engulfed 60% of my prostate. In Jan. 2010 they did a PSA on me and found that I still had cancer cells in my body so finally in March, 2010, they injected me with a female hormone shot, and another one at the end of May. After some delays, again, I finally started radiation at the beginning of May and will finish at the end of June. Since I don't really trust the VA I got copies of my medical records and reviewed them with my wife--she is an RN. After reviewing them I found out that another DR. had given me a Gleason score of 9 and a T4 rating also since the cancer had invaded my bladder neck. Since my surgery I have lost the ability to have sex--they removed the seminal vesicals and the erectory nerves--have been sick every day with the hormone and radiation, and have been suffering from MDD (Major Depressive Disorder).
In retrospect, I almost wish that I had refused the Prostate biopsy when it was offered to me. At least I would have been able to retain more quality of life than I currently have.
Does anyone else feel this way? I am curious to see if others feel this way or I am just feeling sorry for myself.