May 09, 2010 - 2:27 am
For several days now I have been dreading Mother's Day. This Mother's Day was to be very special for my husband and I because on October 2, 2009 we gave birth to a healthy beautiful baby boy, after having three prior miscarriages. Shortly after Dakotas birth Donald began to complain about shortness of breath. He was an avid raquetball player and wanted this issue resolved quickly. Initially it was thought to be pneumonia however the cxr showed fluid on his right lung. He was admitted to the hospital for a tap. After the tap a CT and MRI was done and masses were seen on his RLL, diaphram, margin of the liver and brain. Dec 10, 2009 he was dx'd with stage4 non small cell lung cancer. We could not believe it. He had no prior symptoms, and had quit smoking over 30yrs ago. I was in shock, he was the healthiest man I knew. He had hypertension that was well managed with little medication, diet and excercise. I'm still in shock. But if anyone could beat cancer, Donald could and would.
However, on March 2, 2010 after a short but fierce battle with lung cancer may husband passed away at the age of 52. The life I knew is no more and will never be the same, my heart is completely broken, my days are filled with sadness and tears. I also have a 14yrs old daughter who he loved as his own. If it wasn't for my kids I would not get out the bed each day. I never wanted to be a single mother again. I didn't rush to marry. I wanted it to last so I waited and God sent me a man that adored me, so why would he take him away and why did it happen so fast. I read entries of survivors and i wonder why that could not be Donald, that should be Donald's testimony.