Mar 08, 2010 - 10:37 pm
Hubby passed away 95 days ago and I am now beginning to unravel. Its just too much all at once. Just sorted the cars and then I found out that my landlord's selling so I have to move the girls and myself out in the next 60 days (I was waiting to hear back from the insurers before looking for a house). Last week the bosses laid off one of my colleagues. I have not been able to function at 100% and so am feeling a little insecure about my position. My mum and dad came to live with us last year to help out and after hubby's death they kept at me to get on with life so I never was able to grieve. Now they have gone home I find myself falling apart not because I can't cope with the girls and the household duties and work but because I now have the space to breathe and to let go. Want to curl up and have a good cry but unfortunately don't have the luxury of time. Need to take a deep breath but it keeps getting stuck mid way. And I am anxious all the time. What's that about? I know I'll get through this somehow but am just feeling a little overwhelmed today. Thanks for listening.