Jan 23, 2010 - 9:35 am
I haven't visited this site much lately, I have been worried and a little depressed lately and couldn't respond to anyone's posts because I didn't want to bring others down with my negative thoughts.
First a little background, in March '09 I was diagnosed with inoperable NSCLC adenocarcinoma in my left lung and Squamous Cell carcinoma of my larynx. I went through 35 rads and chemo (cysplatin) plus Stereotactic Radiosurgery for my lung. I finished treatments on Sept. 28th and have been a nervous wreck waiting for my first scan.
I got the results of my scan on Jan. 08,'10 and was encouraged but I couldn't quite get the feeling that my doctors felt I was in remission even though they said I was. I have had to see my ENT every month and he used the scope to look at my larynx. Every month he said the same thing, still some swellling and abnormalities of the larynx. When I saw him on Jan. 13th he told me he was sending me for another biopsy to see if it was scar tissue or whether the cancer had invaded the tissue of my larynx. Had the biopsy the next day but had to wait a week to see my doctor and get the results. Naturally I spent most of that week trying to convince myself that it was just scar tissue. I felt so petty and selfish because he had told me that he would have to remove my voice box if the cancer was in the tissue. I felt selfish because I know that many others have lost more than their voice to this horrible disease. My husband told me that he couldn't imagine life without my being able to nag him :-)
I got the results of the biopsy on Jan. 21st and it came back clean!!! My husband and I were both almost in tears when we heard the news, since then we have both been floating on cloud 9.
I have had a lot of family and friends who have been praying for me daily and I truly believe it was their prayers that got me through this. It has strengthened my faith and I am now a true believer in the power of prayer.
I have promised myself that I will visit this site more frequently and try to help and encourage others who are starting their journey. There are so many of you who helped me that I feel it is my turn to help others.
I want to thank all of you for your support and encouragement, I couldn't have gone through all of this without your help.
Bless all of you and may everyone continue to see improvements in your health!!