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Its been 4 months I can't believe it still...

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I've been having a tough but ok time over the last 4 months when I lost my mom with colon cancer. Its Xmas eve and i find myself going back here. I used to go to Cancer Surivors Network just to read stories to calm myself down when my mom was on treatment for 4 months.....i saw alot of hope. But when she was taken away from us, i stopped going less and less..now im back. I realize i was just going through normal everyday things and i looked quietly in my bathroom mirror, then next thing u know i felt the same feeling rhe day I lost her. I couldn't stop crying....even now..maybe its because its the holidays. Anyways, I wish all of you here find support and love. We will all meet our lost love ones one shape or form, all we can do is make them proud. I miss u mom and please someone just discover a cure to this disease because it hurts to see your mom be taken away in less than 4 months.

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My husband has been gone for just over two months. The holidays are hard, but it's good to be with family and friends. It's also a time when we think of the good memories and feel the hole that we have in our hearts. Take care, Fay

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I lost my Mom about 4 months ago to small intestine cancer and I still cannot believe it. I miss her like I have not talked with her in years and years. She was my best friend and my amazing mother.
I did the same when my Mom was going through treatments for about 4 months as well. I would come here and read stories and feel hope and then when I lost my Mom it was hard to read those stories, because although you are happy for those people it seems unfair. Things all happen for some reason though, this I know.
I'm having a hard time over the holidays as well. I feel that feeling quite often still...the feeling that I felt the day I lost my Mom. I hope the cure is not out of site because I don't wish this feeling upon anyone.

Believe me when I say I do know how much it hurts and we just need to keep going and be as happy as possible because that is what our Mom's want.

I hope you have a good new year. I know I am looking forward to having a much better 2010, with my Mom watching over me.

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