Dec 15, 2009 - 9:50 pm
I've just been diagnosed with VIN I and have apparently had HPV for at least 11 years. Why they didn't tell me this when I had a leep done years ago is beyond me. I'm so upset I wasn't told I would've made better decisions if I'd known.
Anyway I have scheduled surgery for laser vaporization and a partial vulvectomy a week from now. I really question if this surgery is going to be worth all I'm doing to prepare for it. My biggest fear is the pain I'm going to be in afterwards and how long it'll be before I can be back running around with my kids. As a single parent I can't have much down time. I also wonder if all the symptoms I have now will be gone for good or not?? Mainly the constant itching. I also would like to know from those of you who have gone through this if the emotional problems will go away or not, (feeling ashamed, angry, hurt)? I'm confused on what to do. I dropped my boyfriend and I'm afraid to tell him the real reason why. I don't want him making me feel worse than I already do but I also feel he should know he was at risk. What do I do???
Please if anyone has answers for me I'd greatly appreciate it.