Dec 15, 2009 - 4:36 am
I have had enough of people telling me I have to be strong for my children. Apparently I need to get on with the business of life. In the meantime it feels like my life went on pause 11 days ago when I watched my husband sigh his last breath. I can't seem to find the space to mourn my loss. Everyone keeps trying to keep me busy. The girls have been bunking in my room for the last 2 weeks so although every night I feel like crying I have to hold it in. I feel like a blocked pipe ready to burst. I just want to curl up in a corner and bawl my eyes out. My heart feels so heavy and I can't seem to take a deep breath. Life seems to have lost its colour. Why does everyone seem to think I need to be strong?