I have a problem, the last three people I have talked to have been pesamisitc saying, well you do have 5% chance of survival,
so "I wouldnt put money into your teeth If I were you" while talking to cancer cares ! of all people.
My GP saying I need anti depressants because I am mad about the pains I have and alergies ( I have never had before ) and cant figure out what is going on and slight hot flashes, I said oh well it is good on hot flashes, she said yes and for depression, you DO have a diagnosis of %5 so your depressed right , NO I AM NOT , If I were Id just throw myself infront of a truck, that is not ever run through my mind,
I am mad I can not figure out pains, and especially the alergies ! sounds like I have a cold sniveling and running eyes, everyone runs when i come in as they think I am contagious !
I am frustrated about the new HMO rules, I am frustrated that I have to wait now to see if the chemo worked.
thank God the only one that is not saying that is Dr Liu, she said yes there is a bad diagnosis but we are going to be positive and do all we can to give you a LONG life, I am only going to see her once every 3 months unless there is recurrance, and then I if I have to get chemo I will not be able to get it at U of M as my medicade hmo will not allow it. so I am finding all these extra problems coming up with this dang hmo, like giving me a driver who had a very full ash tray in the front seat by me, was feeling very ill when I got in his car, asked him to move it away from me , as I had asked them prior to not have a driver that smoked, well that fell on deaf ears, he was not happy about having to stop and move the ash tray . new hmo says it is a crap shoot I will get who ever driver , I have NO choice in the matter, more headaches.
sorry for ranting.
ao any suggestions other than telling my doc over and over I am not depressed
and hanging up on the cancer cares person.