Nov 01, 2009 - 4:00 pm
Acupuncture and chinese herbs are not cutting into my joint pain. Unfortunately. I truly believe that my joints in my hands, mostly my thumbs, were bathed in chemotherapy, bringing on arthritis. I totally blame this on the chemicals.
I have been splinted, pump myself full of advil and chinese herbs every fricken day, cortisone injections in July (that lasted all of 2 weeks) and I am overcome most days with hand pain.
I also have neuropathy damage in my hands and feet. I have an "ulna nerve entrapment" at my left elbow- so in addition to neuropathy I have a double whammy of 2 outer fingers in my left hand are pin-prickly-painful.
I am reaching the end of my rope. Trying desperately to tie a knot to hang on, but my hands hurt too much to even try. I go from teary to full blown tears most of my waking hours- many things I do that everyone else can do with ease, brings on the waves of pain. Surprisingly, typing doesn't hurt. Everything else does. I would say this is a 4-5 out of a 10 pain scale- which in the grand scheme of life and living isn't bad. But this is chronic, day in and day out.
I see the hand surgeon tomorrow morning. I am going to ask for another set of xrays- I suspect the thumb joints have deteriorated even further since July. I already know the only direction I can go is cortisone injections- surgery has been mentioned, but can't do that yet. He has already said there is nothing he can do, cortisone or surgery is it.
I was always strong through 6 cancer related hospitalizations, 3 surgeries and 6 months of chemo. I did what I needed to do. Yes, I was the pillar of strength. And now I cry.