I fell completely head over heels in love with a man, who from the start, told me he had cancer. At the time, it was nothing I was afraid of. I knew at some point things would get hard but I didnt realize how soon and how hard.
He told me that the doctors told him he had 7 years. This was about 2 months ago. Last Friday he called me after trying to push me away and said they told him he had 6 months and that he could no longer be with me. Needless to say I was crushed and still am.
I am at a loss and just need some help understanding. I've tried to talk with him but he said the cruelest thing in that he didnt love me anymore and just a week ago he sent me roses and a beautiful love note. Any insight would be much appreciated. I don't know how to grieve this type of loss, not only losing my love but my best friend in one swift moment. He is not gone in the physical sense and that loss is looming. I just need something, anything to help me understand why he is pushing me away and what purpose this serves.